Originally posted by edison
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I was talking about this with my therapist a couple of days ago. He suggested that my fear behind not wanting to get much more training might stem from a long term lack of confidence. A belief that I have a lack of a good working memory, that by choosing to learn new things will cause me to forget some of the existing things I know. Which might adversely affect my ability to do my current work. Also the "shaming" that some in the community here had against the idea of learning in the past (recall the criticism of the "paper MCSE" - the person who does all of the Microsoft certifications but is not able to do the job because he doesn't have the corresponding work experience).
My thinking, and I am not sure about this, is that perhaps I should change my attitude a little, away from a focus on the client and the work they need to have done, and instead towards the idea of learning new tech skills for their own sake. This is what I did back when I was 17, and it got me into Cambridge uni. There is something "pure" about study, in that it is always logical and success is not determined by someone's (the client's) opinion but rather upon the successful accumulation of specific facts.
There again, if you read any books on how to be successful they say the opposite, that those who know a lot of facts tend to fall behind those who know a lot of people/are able to solve real business problems. If I can somehow recapture that drive and sense of self esteem that I had back then, perhaps this might be worth it even if it risks alienating the client a bit.
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