It's difficult to keep being motivated.
I mean people will always say "look at the next invoice" to keep you working. But what if you're on fixed price stage payments? And you've been doing this for over 7 years. And you're getting better money than you ever could as a contractor?
By all rights, you should firing on all cylinders ripping up the work.
But like socialism, the idealogy doesn't always work as planned. It's very difficult to keep that kind of motivation for a long period of time.
I've worked extremely hard for the last 5 years, even to the detriment of my marriage to work direct for several blue chips. Most people would say, I'm lucky to work from my own office 24/7 without the daily commute and without the parasitical involvement of agents, and they'd be right in that particular part of my business.
It's not easy obviously. But it's not the hard work that's the issue, it's the subtle things like the lack of comaraderie, the social interaction between fellow contractors, the vaguaries of project maturities, boredom, distraction, cash flow, uncertanties... I have to be very careful on the phone and not "talk the hind leg off a donkey" to my clients because I've not spoken to anyone in the last 12 hours.
Motivation is a fickle thing. Niavely, I thought I could carry on with the 24/7 coding that I did for 3 years but I have, despite the numerous Maldives holidays, the private planes, the sports cars, come into a long period of burnout. Yes, I'll probably retire in my late 40s but at what price?
Don't get me wrong, I like what I'm doing more than anything I've done in the world but don't assume that working from your own office is nirvana - it has its own set of demons to battle.
I mean people will always say "look at the next invoice" to keep you working. But what if you're on fixed price stage payments? And you've been doing this for over 7 years. And you're getting better money than you ever could as a contractor?
By all rights, you should firing on all cylinders ripping up the work.
But like socialism, the idealogy doesn't always work as planned. It's very difficult to keep that kind of motivation for a long period of time.
I've worked extremely hard for the last 5 years, even to the detriment of my marriage to work direct for several blue chips. Most people would say, I'm lucky to work from my own office 24/7 without the daily commute and without the parasitical involvement of agents, and they'd be right in that particular part of my business.
It's not easy obviously. But it's not the hard work that's the issue, it's the subtle things like the lack of comaraderie, the social interaction between fellow contractors, the vaguaries of project maturities, boredom, distraction, cash flow, uncertanties... I have to be very careful on the phone and not "talk the hind leg off a donkey" to my clients because I've not spoken to anyone in the last 12 hours.
Motivation is a fickle thing. Niavely, I thought I could carry on with the 24/7 coding that I did for 3 years but I have, despite the numerous Maldives holidays, the private planes, the sports cars, come into a long period of burnout. Yes, I'll probably retire in my late 40s but at what price?
Don't get me wrong, I like what I'm doing more than anything I've done in the world but don't assume that working from your own office is nirvana - it has its own set of demons to battle.
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