Should I stay or should I go?

[oracleslave]

Having one of those days. Calendar stretching up until 9pm. I have a midnight call tomorrow. Don't really want to talk to anyone and have to chair a load of meetings and sessions today. I don't think I can take any more of this daily permie grind and now Osbournes killed my contracting fall back.

Sigh.

I never wanted to do this job in the first place. I wanted to be a lumberjack

Take a look at your calendar and assess the things you have in there against your objectives (given you're a permie) I'll bet 75% of the activities in there don't even help you achieve your objectives - which you need to in order to hit your bonus right? It's your calendar so take some control of it FFS. Get your mindset into declining every calendar invite you receive as the default reaction.

[MaryPoppins]

Suityyy.

[MarillionFan]

Well?

No still there. Was so pissed off after the lying call I spoke to my boss, who when I mentioned the discussion was incensed and stated the guy was blatantly lying and went off to seek him out immediately. Basically tulipty politics

Take a look at your calendar and assess the things you have in there against your objectives (given you're a permie) I'll bet 75% of the activities in there don't even help you achieve your objectives - which you need to in order to hit your bonus right? It's your calendar so take some control of it FFS. Get your mindset into declining every calendar invite you receive as the default reaction.

My bonus is based on delivering corporate targets, but they're so vague at my level. For the team you have to be specific' really specific. I don't as such get specific goals such as 'create x function'''deliver value across y'. I've always got or exceeded the bonus so that's not an issue.

Odd thing is now I've started picking up some OCDish habits I've never had before. Ive always had. Counting fixation though. I've started having to go and straighten furniture if it's not straight and moving things from eyelines. I get anxious if it's not right and my heart rate goes up. I used to go to the bookies at lunchtime to play machines to relax but was losing money so I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs. Was particularly anxious yesterday and went out for two hours, including walking down a stream in boots looking for them.

I don't even play golf, but if someone wants the 62 balls I collected yesterday drop me a line.

I probably should just quit.

[pr1]

No still there. Was so pissed off after the lying call I spoke to my boss, who when I mentioned the discussion was incensed and stated the guy was blatantly lying and went off to seek him out immediately. Basically tulipty politics



My bonus is based on delivering corporate targets, but they're so vague at my level. For the team you have to be specific' really specific. I don't as such get specific goals such as 'create x function'''deliver value across y'. I've always got or exceeded the bonus so that's not an issue.

Odd thing is now I've started picking up some OCDish habits I've never had before. Ive always had. Counting fixation though. I've started having to go and straighten furniture if it's not straight and moving things from eyelines. I get anxious if it's not right and my heart rate goes up. I used to go to the bookies at lunchtime to play machines to relax but was losing money so I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs. Was particularly anxious yesterday and went out for two hours, including walking down a stream in boots looking for them.

I don't even play golf, but if someone wants the 62 balls I collected yesterday drop me a line.

I probably should just quit.

i'm a very good driver

[mudskipper]

No still there. Was so pissed off after the lying call I spoke to my boss, who when I mentioned the discussion was incensed and stated the guy was blatantly lying and went off to seek him out immediately. Basically tulipty politics



My bonus is based on delivering corporate targets, but they're so vague at my level. For the team you have to be specific' really specific. I don't as such get specific goals such as 'create x function'''deliver value across y'. I've always got or exceeded the bonus so that's not an issue.

Odd thing is now I've started picking up some OCDish habits I've never had before. Ive always had. Counting fixation though. I've started having to go and straighten furniture if it's not straight and moving things from eyelines. I get anxious if it's not right and my heart rate goes up. I used to go to the bookies at lunchtime to play machines to relax but was losing money so I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs. Was particularly anxious yesterday and went out for two hours, including walking down a stream in boots looking for them.

I don't even play golf, but if someone wants the 62 balls I collected yesterday drop me a line.

I probably should just quit.

So you gonna wait till you have a full on breakdown, or quit while you've still got a modicum of dignity in tact?

[MrMarkyMark]

FTFY

I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club getting naked and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs.

I suggest you seek some professional help, is that covered as part of your, extensive, permy benefits?

[oracleslave]

No still there. Was so pissed off after the lying call I spoke to my boss, who when I mentioned the discussion was incensed and stated the guy was blatantly lying and went off to seek him out immediately. Basically tulipty politics



My bonus is based on delivering corporate targets, but they're so vague at my level. For the team you have to be specific' really specific. I don't as such get specific goals such as 'create x function'''deliver value across y'. I've always got or exceeded the bonus so that's not an issue.

Odd thing is now I've started picking up some OCDish habits I've never had before. Ive always had. Counting fixation though. I've started having to go and straighten furniture if it's not straight and moving things from eyelines. I get anxious if it's not right and my heart rate goes up. I used to go to the bookies at lunchtime to play machines to relax but was losing money so I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs. Was particularly anxious yesterday and went out for two hours, including walking down a stream in boots looking for them.

I don't even play golf, but if someone wants the 62 balls I collected yesterday drop me a line.

I probably should just quit.

Never can tell with you if there is an in joke that I am missing but if the above is truthful. Assuming it is accurate, I'd agree with mudskipper that you might be on a slippery slope and to get out now as your coping mechanisms sound like they'll have a limited lifespan.

[Ruprect]

No still there. Was so pissed off after the lying call I spoke to my boss, who when I mentioned the discussion was incensed and stated the guy was blatantly lying and went off to seek him out immediately. Basically tulipty politics



My bonus is based on delivering corporate targets, but they're so vague at my level. For the team you have to be specific' really specific. I don't as such get specific goals such as 'create x function'''deliver value across y'. I've always got or exceeded the bonus so that's not an issue.

Odd thing is now I've started picking up some OCDish habits I've never had before. Ive always had. Counting fixation though. I've started having to go and straighten furniture if it's not straight and moving things from eyelines. I get anxious if it's not right and my heart rate goes up. I used to go to the bookies at lunchtime to play machines to relax but was losing money so I've now picked up this odd habit of driving off to the local golf club and going for a walk looking for lost golfballs. Was particularly anxious yesterday and went out for two hours, including walking down a stream in boots looking for them.

I don't even play golf, but if someone wants the 62 balls I collected yesterday drop me a line.

I probably should just quit.

You are on of the visually impaired MD's golden Labrador and I claim my £5

Seriously though, are you sure you're cut out to be a permie?

[original PM]

Take a look at your calendar and assess the things you have in there against your objectives (given you're a permie) I'll bet 75% of the activities in there don't even help you achieve your objectives - which you need to in order to hit your bonus right? It's your calendar so take some control of it FFS. Get your mindset into declining every calendar invite you receive as the default reaction.

Common error

Often permie goals are over and above your 'day job'

so you may work on helpdesk - and you will have performance targets you need to hit before you get 'performance managed' and then over an above you will get other goals - such as write an FAQ for system x or define a new process for scenario y

but as MF said at his level it is more achieve some goal z.... and then you need to get your staff's goals aligned to help achieve that.

MF I do some Exec Coaching if you need a session or two!

[rl4engc]

My 2p,

I'm pure technical (some call it bottom feeder.. ) which is how I like it. I get the tech side done, have very few meetings, start and finish when I want, no stress, no great responsibilities (save doing the tech bit right) and get paid a lot as a contractor.

My boss ("Technical Lead") is in meetings all day, permie, lower pay, has apraisals, risk of redundancy, never gets to get his hands dirty much, etc.

I think the modern workplace is too centred around meetings, that achieve very little but waste loads of time and possible give the organisers a feeling of self-worth.

I once worked for a major arms manufacturer, who get PM's in fresh out of Uni, have no idea about the technical side of the product they are selling, and just sit in meetings all day, or book "Pre-Meetings", I was astounded anything ever got done.. "We need to discuss xyz, OK, I'll set up a meeting for next Thursday.."